Purpose…how do we find out what our purpose here on earth really is? What does purpose mean? Well, when we look it up in the dictionary…oh wait, there are no dictionaries in my house anymore, let me just google it. 🙂
Purpose: the reason for which something is done or created or for which something exists.
So, my question is: how do I find out what my purpose is here…what is God’s plan for my life? I mean, He must have a plan, right? Well, God never does anything by accident and all that He does is for a reason…His actions are always deliberate. I take comfort in that, knowing that there is a reason for everything that happens in my life even if I can’t see it, know it, or may never know it.
I do find it hard sometimes though, when I see those around me who seem to have “arrived” in life, that seem to have discovered their purpose. Don’t get me wrong, I am truly happy for them. It is wonderful and so reassuring to see God working in the lives of the people around me. But, if I am not careful, I can take my eyes off of God and off of what He is doing in my life and “strands” of jealousy start creeping their way in and I begin to listen to their lies. The lies tell me: You’re obviously not good enough or not spiritual enough, You haven’t been praying enough, God doesn’t find you special enough to be worthy of His attention, and the list goes on and on. I start to feel deflated, depressed, and the doubts start to take hold of me. It is in that moment that God’s voice whispers to me and tells me that I AM precious to Him and He DOES have a plan and purpose for my life…but I will know it in His time, not mine. I am always amazed that God can correct me in such a loving, tender way.
I was thinking about my purpose lately and I am still wondering what it is. I see glimpses of what I think it may be and honestly, I was hoping for more…an “important” purpose, one that would be known by others. But I know that desire is worldly and vain and I am learning to find contentment in what God wants me to be right now…in this moment. It is so important to learn to live in the present.
I was actually discussing this very idea of what my purpose was today with a close friend of mine. As we were talking, I was thinking about all the “greats” in the world…all the people who have made history in one way or another. They all didn’t just arrive in the spotlight, it took effort to get there. God has a purpose for me, but I have to be willing to work with Him to achieve it. I have to be pliable and moldable…like the clay on the potter’s wheel.
God reminded me today that maybe…just maybe…my purpose here on earth is to help those around me, those directly in my life, achieve their purpose. How convicting and exciting that thought is! God has partnered me with an amazing man who is my husband of almost 18 years and also my best friend. I am learning every day how to be a better wife and friend to him. God’s purpose for me as his wife is…to respect and love him, encourage and support him, and to be there with him in all the ups and downs of this life. I have also been blessed with four awesome children…all so different, so unique. God has entrusted them to me, to nurture and teach them and ultimately, point them to Jesus…the One who died and rose for them. If that is God’s only purpose for me here on earth, then so be it! I need to stop judging myself by the world’s standards and learn to be content with what God has given me. Now, I am not saying those doubts and jealous “strands” won’t try and creep their way in again…I am human and imperfect. What I do know is that God made me, He loves me and His plans are far more perfect than mine will ever be.
“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”